at Love's hand

My love is so deep and other-wordly;

it is impossible for me to control.

I tried to withhold it when I thought she didn't love me back.

The pain was awful and she never left my mind.

Then I realized that I love her no matter what.

My body and mind can't control the love.

My only choice is surrender.

The love is there. Even when I perceive hurt at love's hand, the pain of withholding it hurts far worse.

I love the love.
I'm in love what that love.

I will wait forever for that love.

I know that love can't be stopped.

I don't have to do anything.

I just let the love shine through me,

and watch all my dreams come true.   

Today's special affirmation

I let my love flow, even when it hurts; because when fear causes me to hold it back, the hurt turns to suffering.  I'm grateful for the path that lead me here, and I'm never going back.  Kali, I pray, release me forever from my fear of love.

bleed

Help me, Kali,
it aches so deep.
Is it me or her I see...
Will I know,
how can it be?
First I cough,
then I bleed.
Is it her or me I see?
Help me, Kali,
meet my needs.
Sow me into ecstacy.

A New Creed

·         I believe in the law of cause and effect; karma.

·         I believe that our thoughts control our reality.

·         I believe that when I ask Kali for something, the law of karma goes into action.  What I ask for will always be provided to me, though not always in the form I imagined.  Often that which I ask for comes in a form that is even better than I imagined.  Detachment from the ultimate form is the key.

·         I believe that by focusing my thoughts on Love, I attract Love into my life.

·         I believe that presence is the key to bringing awareness to my thoughts, so that I am aware of and can choose the karma I am creating.

·         I believe that everything appearing in my life right now is the result of some past thought; either my individual thought or a collective thought.

·         I believe that when I ask for guidance from Kali, the Divine Masters or angels, it is right there.

·         I believe that gratitude for the things I have fosters gifts of love and appreciation in return.

·         I believe that shifting the energy of my thoughts immediately shifts my reality; such that other beings instantly, whether consciously or unconsciously, recognize and react to the shift.

Thank you, heartbreak

Thank you, heartbreak,
for taking me deep into my hell,
to wrestle the zombies lurking there,
and break through my kurmasana shell.

Thank you, hurt,
for creating that heart space
to allow Love to flow freely,
and Kali's healing to take place.

today's prayer

Kali, help me realize that I hold the key to healing my own heart,
that those that hurt me do so unwittingly, they too are hurting;
that nothing is personal, how can it be? 
We all live in our own movie, our own self-created reality.
Help me to see this truth, and to stop hurting myself,
to realize I am everything I ever wanted,
that my heart is already whole.

Moonday Mother prayer

Kali, may I feel your ocean of bliss
even beneath my earthly joys,
so that should those joys be replaced with sorrow,
I will feel your bliss evermore deeply,
lest I by chance forget
your deep ocean within.